that's so awkward
Why does life have to throw us so many cringe-worthy moments…? And what is it in our human-nature that has ingrained within us a predisposition towards intimidation that causes us to well —embarrass ourselves.
You know, the uncomfortable situations that for some reason leaves your head and body not knowing how to respond at all, let alone like, appropriately.
You know, when what's happening inside is outwardly expressing itself as a state of crisis on your face, as you're planning your immediate escape route and looking for the nearest emergency exit.
You know, when a part of you simply dies on the inside and it's really obviously presenting itself on the surface.
Well... I'M THAT GIRL... Who’s had her fair share of embarrassment and awkwardness.
I'M THAT GIRL... who responds to someone who simply says "hi" with "I'm good thanks, how are you?" 😊💁😊💁😊💁
I'M THAT GIRL... Who waves back to a person who was actually waving to the person behind me! 👋🏼😬👋🏼😬👋🏼😬
I'M THAT GIRL... who has been so intimidated by big personalities, or star struck by people I respect that I’ve frozen, mumbled and have even said things completely contrary to the actual truth. 😐🙊😐🙊😐🙊
I'M THAT GIRL... who picked out a tampon from my bag thinking it was my lipstick and my eyes went 😳💄😳💄😳💄😳.
I'M THAT GIRL... who had to use my teachers coat in high school to wrap around my waist because my period had leaked on my dress and had to do the walk of shame to the office.🚶🏽♀️🙍🚶🏽♀️🙍🚶🏽♀️🙍🚶🏽♀️🙍
I'M THAT GIRL... who has been so flustered in social situations - that I've broken out into a sweat (which led me to believe that perhaps I was experiencing early menopause in my twenties?) 😥🤷♀️😥🤷♀️😥🤷♀️😥🤷♀️
I'M THAT GIRL... who has forgotten the lyrics and melodies of songs while singing in front of thousands of people and just... froze. Completely. I just froze. 😶😐😶😐😶.
I'M THAT GIRL... who has been so emotional, I have cried dramatically for a solid 30 mins while publicly speaking (again, in front of thousands of people). 😭😭😭😭
I'M THAT GIRL... who has had all the womanly hormonal issues you could possibly think of... like... an increase of testosterone while pregnant with my boy, resulting in much unwanted bodily hair. 🦍🤰🏼🦍🤰🏼🦍🤰🏼
I'M THAT GIRL... who FOR SOME REASON!! (And this one I am mad about!) I am that girl who always falls over - like literally .. Falls. Down. On. The. Ground! Usually by myself. And usually while a whole lot of strangers watch on and laugh. 🤦♀️🏃♀️🤦♀️🏃♀️🤦♀️🏃♀️🤦♀️🏃♀️🤦♀️
I'M THAT GIRL... whose first kiss was with a boy that was equally as awkward as me, we were frozen, we banged teeth and we never ever spoke to each other again. 😘🤓😘🤓😘
❤️💜The list could go on and on and on (😒)💜❤️
But I just wanted to share some moments for the pure purpose of relatability 😌.
While your awkward moments may be different to mine... We've all known the feeling. We all understand. And don't be deceived into thinking that it's just you.
In the past, these sorts of moments made me want to shrink back and hide, or hate myself, and run from pursuing my dreams or continue making friends. But I believe that it's because I didn’t let those moments get the better of me... and because I've learnt how to see the funny side of my awkward-self, laugh about it and then move on (and erase it from my memory-bank - a crucial step 👍🏼👍🏼👍🏼)… and it's because I believe that my confident moments have outshone my awkward ones - that I'm doing what I’m doing and living out my dreams.
And you know what, being relatable is AWESOME! It draws people in and allows others to actually feel like they're on the same level as you. And that's the goal isn't it? Commonality amongst one another. Understanding and empathy with one another. Compassion and humility with one another.
No one is perfect. Least of all, ME!
Embrace your awkwardness. Laugh lots. Choose confidence.
So much love ❤️💜